Why oh why are the fates determined to keep me FAT?

Today was going to be the day.  The day I start P90X, my journey to a hot ripped bod!  I borrowed the DVDs from a friend, got a schedule off of the Internet and got my self all excited by watching "Get Ready to BRING it"!  I was so ready to BRING it people, which is saying something because there is A LOT of me to bring. 

Anyway, I ended up being up all night with a sick baby, grrrr, makes it hard to get up and go for it but still I was committed.  So I went to pop in the Core Synergistics DVD that the schedule said to do on Day 1......... but it actually ended up being the Stretch DVD.   So I think maybe I will just do the cardio DVD instead...can't find that one either.  (BTW, if my friend Sam is reading this, I totally don't blame you, after all I am getting to use your P90X DVDs for FREE!  So really instead of complaining I should be thanking you, but unfortunately I'm in a complaining mood!)  

Do I give up? NO!  I think I will just put in one of my other workout DVD's, so I stick in The Firm 500 calorie workout.  It is an hour long so I figure it will do.  My almost two year old has other ideas.  After I almost accidentally kick him in the head because he keeps getting in my way I decide to just go for a walk/run with him in the stroller.  Pull out the jogging stroller, blow off the dust and try to find the tire pump.  No where to be found, OK, instead I will just do the tires with the big, noisy pump that plugs into the cigarette lighter in the car....except too bad it seems to be broken!!!!

AGHHHH, but this time I am frustrated, angry, and discouraged  and it is 10:00 a.m.  After trying to exercise all morning I just give up. I Plop myself down on the couch and watch Good Things Utah.  And to end off my bad morning it was a stupid show to boot!  They made lamb in the kitchen (really ? who cooks lamb)  talked about the Oscar's ( I don't really care) and they had a segment on getting your kids into Hollywood (because really, don't we all have the next Justin Beiber?) 

Why does losing weight have to be so hard!!!????

One of my big problems is that I trade what I want MOST for want I want NOW.  (yes, I know I did not make that quote up and I'd give proper credit if I could remember who said it).  Like what I want MOST is to be thin but what I want NOW was ice cream sandwiches. 

The ice cream won. :(

I almost gave up

Do you ever feel like you just can't do it all?  That is my feeling lately.  I am just so overwhelmed with life.   It's not just the weight loss thing, it's EVERYTHING!  I can't get my kids to stop fighting, keep up with the laundry, feed my family enough fruit, vegetables and fiber,  decorate my home with items I salvaged from the side of the road and then refinished, organize my pantry, read the book for book club, volunteer at my kids school, live within a budget, have family home evening, incorporate owls into my home decor, perfect the messy bun, keep up on my blog, keep the romance alive in my marriage, match all the socks,  do the dishes, wash the walls, clean out the minivan, read with the kids, practice time tables with the kids!  And those are just the things on my mind right now, give me minuter and I'm come up with a whole another list.  I am so overwhelmed I just want to throw in the towel.  But, notice the title of this post, see the important word, almost.  I'm really not giving up.  I'll keep plugging along.  My home won't ever be fabulous, my kids will always fight, I'll always  be a  little pudgy around the middle.  But on the flip side because I won't give up we will always have a roof over our head, my kids will know how much I love them and at hopefully I won't be this fat forever!

Hot Momma

I went to playgroup this week at the swimming pool. The kids had fun and it was nice to get out of the house....the bad part....there was only three other moms there besides me who were not wearing bikinis....and two of them were pregnant. I would like to use the excuse that I have kids so that is why my body is so gross but this was PLAYGROUP...EVERYONE there was a mom. And, not only were they wearing bikinis, but they looked GOOD in them... It was depressing.

Now I am not saying that I want to necessarily wear a bikini...but just feeling good enough about myself that I dont have to don the fat mom swim skirt would be a good start! Oh well. At least my boobs are real.

Can Zucchini=Fruit Snacks?

I am on this kick of trying to make healthy snacks for my kids but I'm unsure if this next one goes way too far.  Check out THIS link for how to make fruit snacks from zucchini, SERIOUSLY!   If I ever try it out I'll let you in on the results! 

New Baking day recipe

I had some ripe bananas to use so I searched for a new healthy recipe and found THIS.  The only change I made to the recipe was to use half whole wheat flour and add a 1/4 cup of applesauce.  These Banana Muffins turned out very yummy and don't even need chocolate chips like the Monkey Bars.  I made some mini muffins and some regular sized muffins.

Say what you will, but when my five year old eats these I'm counting them as a fruit.  These will definitely be on the agenda for the next baking day!  Try them, you'll like them!

Baking Day-Take One

Today I attempted my first "Baking Day".  Pretty much the idea was to make a whole bunch of healthy snacks and portion them into individual servings.  Then I can quickly pop a delicious and nutritious snack out of the freezer for my family to enjoy.  Here is what I made:

*Monkey Bars (recipe found here)
*Chocolate Chip Bar Cookies (recipe found here)
*Breakfast in a Cookie (recipe found here)
*Chex Mix (recipe found here)

And here are the results:

Monkey Bars-the kids liked them.  I thought the texture was gross and mushy.  I'm not sure if I under baked them or maybe it is the mixture of applesauce and bananas but I will defiantly experiment with them again seeing as my kids liked them.  I'm hoping with some tweaks I can get it better because it is super healthy.

Chocolate Chip Bar Cookies-these I have made before and we all like them.  I'm not gonna lie to you, they are not your Grandma's chocolate chip cookies but....they have whole wheat four and no oil or butter. :)

Breakfast in a Cookie-this was my major flop.  I made the full batch (which makes SIXTY cookies) and they were super gross!  I think they will be making their way over to my dad's house.  Because my kids will tell you, "Grandpa will eat anything!"

Chex Mix-this is my daughters fav so there were no surprises here.

Grand totals:

28 Monkey Bars

24 Chocolate Chip Cookie Bars

60 Breakfast Cookies (honestly I didn't bother to count)

10 individual bags of Chex Mix

(notice how I didn't even bother to clean up the monkey bars smashed on the table by my one year old?  Just keepin' it real folks.)

Stay tuned for Baking Day-take two!

*Update: Breakfast in a cookie not as bad as I thought the second day.  They seem to get better over time. (Although not good enough to make them again.)