Why oh why are the fates determined to keep me FAT?

Today was going to be the day.  The day I start P90X, my journey to a hot ripped bod!  I borrowed the DVDs from a friend, got a schedule off of the Internet and got my self all excited by watching "Get Ready to BRING it"!  I was so ready to BRING it people, which is saying something because there is A LOT of me to bring. 

Anyway, I ended up being up all night with a sick baby, grrrr, makes it hard to get up and go for it but still I was committed.  So I went to pop in the Core Synergistics DVD that the schedule said to do on Day 1......... but it actually ended up being the Stretch DVD.   So I think maybe I will just do the cardio DVD instead...can't find that one either.  (BTW, if my friend Sam is reading this, I totally don't blame you, after all I am getting to use your P90X DVDs for FREE!  So really instead of complaining I should be thanking you, but unfortunately I'm in a complaining mood!)  

Do I give up? NO!  I think I will just put in one of my other workout DVD's, so I stick in The Firm 500 calorie workout.  It is an hour long so I figure it will do.  My almost two year old has other ideas.  After I almost accidentally kick him in the head because he keeps getting in my way I decide to just go for a walk/run with him in the stroller.  Pull out the jogging stroller, blow off the dust and try to find the tire pump.  No where to be found, OK, instead I will just do the tires with the big, noisy pump that plugs into the cigarette lighter in the car....except too bad it seems to be broken!!!!

AGHHHH, but this time I am frustrated, angry, and discouraged  and it is 10:00 a.m.  After trying to exercise all morning I just give up. I Plop myself down on the couch and watch Good Things Utah.  And to end off my bad morning it was a stupid show to boot!  They made lamb in the kitchen (really ? who cooks lamb)  talked about the Oscar's ( I don't really care) and they had a segment on getting your kids into Hollywood (because really, don't we all have the next Justin Beiber?) 

Why does losing weight have to be so hard!!!????

One of my big problems is that I trade what I want MOST for want I want NOW.  (yes, I know I did not make that quote up and I'd give proper credit if I could remember who said it).  Like what I want MOST is to be thin but what I want NOW was ice cream sandwiches. 

The ice cream won. :(

I almost gave up

Do you ever feel like you just can't do it all?  That is my feeling lately.  I am just so overwhelmed with life.   It's not just the weight loss thing, it's EVERYTHING!  I can't get my kids to stop fighting, keep up with the laundry, feed my family enough fruit, vegetables and fiber,  decorate my home with items I salvaged from the side of the road and then refinished, organize my pantry, read the book for book club, volunteer at my kids school, live within a budget, have family home evening, incorporate owls into my home decor, perfect the messy bun, keep up on my blog, keep the romance alive in my marriage, match all the socks,  do the dishes, wash the walls, clean out the minivan, read with the kids, practice time tables with the kids!  And those are just the things on my mind right now, give me minuter and I'm come up with a whole another list.  I am so overwhelmed I just want to throw in the towel.  But, notice the title of this post, see the important word, almost.  I'm really not giving up.  I'll keep plugging along.  My home won't ever be fabulous, my kids will always fight, I'll always  be a  little pudgy around the middle.  But on the flip side because I won't give up we will always have a roof over our head, my kids will know how much I love them and at hopefully I won't be this fat forever!