Monday, November 15, 2010

So depressed

Really people, all that good attitude and motivation from a week or so ago, gone. This last week has involved soooo much stress from extended family, messy unorganized house, too many bills not enough money, a sick husband, out of control kids, a five year old that doesn't sleep (seriously, I was up every two hours the last two nights, don't bring up this post here, it is just too depressing). There, rant over, now I go to sit on the couch and watch my daytime Utah shows!

Friday, November 12, 2010


I hope you sang that title to the tune of Lion King.

Here is the cycle of my jeans:

Normal Size........
Barely Pregnant Size........
Bigger Pregnant Size.......
Just had the baby and still pretty much look pregnant size..........
Fat post-pregnant size (this size can easily last a year)..........
Struggling to loose baby Lbs size (approx same size as barley pregnant)..........
Normal Size.......
AND..........If I am lucky, Skinny Jean size.....

And then I usually get pregnant and the cycle starts over again

I am happy to report I am officially in "Normal" size jeans....well as normal as a size can be when you have had four kids....Do I even dare to ever even try to "skinny size" again?!?!?!?!

Sunday, November 7, 2010


I went to bed last night and found a box of chocolates on my pillow. Sweet, yes. But not so helpful when you are on a diet. :(

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Being Realistic

About food, that is. Today I threw away some nicely frozen portions of Lentil and Rice Casserole. Zonya (who I really like and enjoy most of her recipes) says something like "this recipe makes a ton but you'll love it so much you'll be glad to have leftovers". Not so much Zonya. As good as it is for me, me and my children are never going to love a big dish of Lentil and Rice Casserole.

Friday, November 5, 2010

Nothing to scoff at

So I weighed in today and had lost one pound. I was kind of bummed at first because I wanted more but then I remembered last week I pulled one of my "all or nothing" things. I was all set to have an awesome week leading up to Halloween but then when Monday went bad I just decided to scrap the whole week. Tons of JUNK food. Soooooo, maybe combining that bad week with this good week, one pound sounds about right. Trying to stay POSITIVE!!!!

Thursday, November 4, 2010


I'm regretting the decision to use up my days calories on laffy taffy instead of dinner. Now I'm going to bed hungry and slightly sick. :(

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

It's true what they say.............

Sometimes all you have to do to feel better about yourself and to stop worrying about your problems is to help other people. There is ALWAYS someone with bigger problems than I have and helping them somehow helps to put my life and my problems in perspective.

I'm a believer!

So I know you've heard a million times the advice that if you don't feel like exercising just do it anyway and a little while into your workout you'll totally be feelin' it. I took that advice today. Grumpy morning mood and no time to exercise but I did it anyway. Just a quick half hour before Music class with S (yes, I go to toddler music class) and it turned my whole day around!

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Never underestimate your power to change yourself. Never overestimate your power to change others.

I can think of lots of reasons to blame my kids and husband for my weight gain. For example: My husband can eat what he wants and not gain weight so it is his fault for eating treats in front of me. My kids won't eat the healthy food I make so I may well just make hot dogs and mac n' cheese. My husband won't get up in the morning to take care of the kids so I can't exercise in the morning. My husband won't get up in the morning and go to work early enough so he can come home in time for me to go exercise in the evening(can you tell my husbands sleeping habits might be a touchy subject!). My kids make me so tired that I can't get up early enough to exercise before everyone wakes up. My kids make me SO MAD, and when I am mad I eat. My husband does things that STRESS me out and when I am stressed I eat. My kids beg for treats when we go to the store. My kids beg for fast food. The list could go on and on. But the truth is that I am a grown up, I am in charge of what I put in my mouth and how much I move my body. Nobody held me down and shoveled oreos in my mouth. Nobody tied me down and made me watch TV instead of exercising. And nobody is going to do the work for me now. Nobody is around making sure I eat my veggies and do the full set of push ups. I can control one person, and that person is ME! Would I love my husband to get up and help get the kids ready for school so had time to exercise in the morning? Yes, but it is not going to happen. So, I need to find a time to exercise that is not dependant on my husband. I used to get up and exercise at 5:30 am. Honestly, I don't want to do that now, I am just too dang tired. So I need to look at other options. The bottom line is that I need to exercise, regardless of what the rest of my family is doing. The same with eating healthy. It is possible! Will my children refuse to eat some things? Yes. Can I still cook healthfully and control my portion sizes? Of course!
I cannot force my family to do all of the things that I think would make it easier to lose weight. But I CAN do all sorts of things that will make it easier to lose weight.

It is the truth, and even though it stinks, I need to change ME!

Monday, November 1, 2010

killer month!

I am going to have a killer month in November, really I am! I am going to post every day to keep myself on track. I want a biggest loser kind of number this month. So get ready to watch and be amazed! :)